Second Chance

Sunday’s Scribbles prompt is "Second Chance". What to do, what to do? Two choices come to mind - mothering, and my health. As today is Mother’s Day, here in the USA, I suppose I should write about mothering. But maybe that’s too depressing for me to do today in particular. Mothering for me is more about regrets - regrets that I wasn’t a better mother to SonOne, and of course ... Jacob is dead, so there is always an underlining of sadness any time an occasion shines it’s beam on that fact.

So, coincidently, the phrase "second chance" was uttered out of my mouth JUST yesterday, not once, but twice even. During the Driver’s Meeting yesterday at our local track, one of my favorite drivers was in town, and when he saw me, he and his wife came over to give me a big hug. After he hugged me, he stepped back, looked me up and down and asked in that "I’m not talking about the weather" sort of way how was I doing. After looking in his eyes to acertain that he didn’t want to hear the "Fine" response, I told him I was doing good, really good, that I just seem to be getting better and better all the time, that I feel like I’ve been given a second chance. He said I looked great and hugged me again. Then his wife and I stepped away from the drivers and proceeded to gossip about the perennial Lions Club vs The Racers, only to have another driver walk up, hug me, and ask me how I was - in the MS context of course - that is what everyone sees, even tho the MS isn’t showing itself lately - to others. We basically repeated the same conversation and as I walked away, I wondered if moving to San Francisco is the second chance I am seeking, or if my improved health is the second chance I've received.  If I wanted to argue with myself, and tilt it towards the San Francisco route, then I could qualify the "I feel like I've got a second chance at life because it's like the MS is not even there anymore" with "cept for the pain part, so if this was meant to be my second chance, it doesn't count cause the pain is still there, and getting worse.  So San Francisco is still on, bay beeeee". 

How many second chances is one life allotted? 

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[TC]

As many as one is willing to take!